Angels of lighted scrolls
Glowing with wings azure light
Daily care to each prayer bequeath
To help all hearts which are mending

All is aligned with havens realm
Musical kaleidoscope
Softest weathered true cherub wall
Beautifully arrayed in each families shawl

Inspirited with blend woven path
Sparkling in clouds soft epitaph
Treasured tokens of loved ones near
In each dawn’s bright

Neath angels wings
Garden of prayers, windows bend
Delicate heart shaped whispers
Layer of veils unseen, each hidden in cherubs hall

Winged celestial choirs, filled the rows in heaven gates, Rains showered
Angels bringing words spoken in each finest hour
Exceeding to excellence beyond all measures of time
Flowed the lady in silvery wings smiling to thine

Etched in soft Rose ribbons, her basket she carried of her life’s stay
Memories she shared of, her children, grandchildren array
Thronged in air, brimmed with wavering lights around her stood tall
Arch Angel Michael, holding each of heavens walls

With her spied berets she stepped to speak her peace
Lord I have many, I have left, I wish to send them faith to see, she replied
With all the gifts, The angel lifted Cherubs light, A rainbow in Gods everlasting sky
To her family the pilgrimage started while each one she held as the baby of her own, there own legacy of life

Taking the steps in renown hearts prayers, she sent them, by messenger to all her families there
Speaking in slumber she will say, each one she loved in her loving way
Her children are her blessings in legacy she leaves to all
Now she will wear the families guardian shawl

I always tell people that I am the self proclaimed queen of tape.

I have realized how true that is.

People always ask about the pain of loosing you. Little do they know that I don’t feel the pain.

The reason for that is that I have shoved it aside. I go around it, over it, under it. But never, never do I allow my self to feel it. For surely my heart would stop.

I will save that for when I am an old woman.

My heart did break the day you died and I have it pieced together with tape.

It is holding the shattered shards with its tenuous strength

Binding the pieces in place so that it may still beat

A simple thing. Tape

It has come to be a reminder and a symbol

For now the Queen is held together by that tape she has proclaims as her own

sweet and simple, complicated and deep
strong and unyielding, tender willing to bend
right yet wrong, living loud and brash
proud of her beauty, shyly insecure
shinning brightly in her radiance, hiding in the shadow of courage
bold in sprit, timid and scared of knowledge
blazing a path at her own rate, asking for direction as she makes her trail
lost in the mystery, smiling at the memories
giver of joy, bewildered by the love
keeper of secrets, companion to all
bold bright beautiful
never forgot
always cherished

Enlightens, celestial messages missions high
Realization,feathered calmness, absolute resolution
Being able to feel the auras love, each given care
Each lad in wavering sails there

Blessings charka azure lightening
Kept in echoes of the soul, light workers borne
Empathy to ones free will
Cherubim, seraphim awayness, golden panoply

Elutriations lost souls, dawning hills
Journeys to angels song
Cannot find the open door, who shall flee?
Spiritual Constance, his adamantine cloak, forseen

Pure , happiness, joy, laughter returns
Light in remembering heart soul
Awakens the mind, body spirit
Visible released in mythos joy and passion
My angel

With firm battalion his helm is protected with Arch Angel Michael
Under signet with wings to flee
All souls shall be welcomed
To Gods Door

Outside in each home, lighted prayers are lit

I breathe with each memory needed to repair the cause

Gather the hearts sending to there sides, proud honor they carry families

Touch the serpentine sandals with celestial beings

Feeling life’s miracles with one last song

Breathe with mine thy heavens

With each cascading lever or door

Chase the sadness away

This is a prayer, to change light

spiritual hearts gather now, Gods plight

heavens, life orb, with divine spirits

Unseen angels watch thee, to rebuild life there

Questioning angels relive the hearts melodies, seek me

Helping one prayer at a time

Whispers of sweet angels wings
Offerings in softest friendships in light
Butterflies in special lamest
Blended in love tapestry
I am souls pinion
Silvery moment of auras exchange
Spiraling in souls fuse to anther
Silver chord
I will step in bounds to fill the love surpassed by all
With heavens rock,caterwauls solace near
Espied eternal place of keeping
Angels guide in sorrow pain
Wearily we lay to slumber to rejuvenate with each entwined
Enlightens smiles surround , baskets brimming all as the calm appears

Recently I was in ICU and was told that my chances of making it were slim to none. I was in such pain that I actually begged god to take me so I could stop the pain.

All of a sudden a man with a blue aura appeared to me saying he had been the guardian angel for my family for generations. He told me he had loved me since the day I was born. He then informed me that I had the strength to get through this and he would be with me every minute to assure I would not give up.

Just as he promised he let me know I was not alone and if I could hold on just a little while longer I would be fine.

Well I made it and am on the mend, physically, at least. However I feel as if I am alone once again. I really need to know that everything I witnessed was not due to medications or something I convinced myself was real just to feel someone really cared and was watching out for me.

Is there a way to contact him one more time? If nothing more than to thank him and tell him how much I love him.

I need to know that I am not crazy, and somehow fill this empty space that seems to have been created since this life and death experience.

Here is an excerpt from The Journey to YOU

EGO VS ESSENCE:

I have known people who constantly strove for perfection. That goal insured disconnected relationships with the very people the perfectionist was attempting to impress. The need to be perfect is like an incubator for stress and therefore creates illness. The need for perfection is Ego based and comes with a daily session of self punishment as the desired result is never achieved. The Ego thrives on this failure as when we are in pain the Ego is more alive.

Excellence on the other hand comes with enough humility to know that even our best will never be perfect. As pure essence, we know and love that about ourselves. Being mindful in our endeavor to recognize who is steering the ship, Ego or Essence, opens up choices for us. The more we choose Essence, the easier and more automatic it becomes to just BE our authentic selves.

FEELINGS VS COMMITMENT:

Feelings, hmmm, what are they good for? We have all had feelings that have somehow sabotaged our lives. We felt lazy, nervous, anxious, fearful, attracted to someone other than our spouse, angry with our children, revengeful, confused, weak to our addictions, etc. If we follow our feelings we will cheat on our spouse, hurt our children and short change our businesses. What are feelings good for? Expressing our feelings can dissipate 50% of the energy on them and create intimacy in our close relationships. Feelings of dissatisfaction can motivate us to be, do or have something new in our lives. Our unwillingness to “feel” our feelings has them run us and control our actions. The more you resist your feelings the more they persist. The less you express and experience them the more those feelings direct your actions and therefore your results.